Yes, I am an Oddball.

**Warning, grouchy rambly post ahead** Some days I wonder if I could handle going it alone. Then there are days like today, which convince me that I'd be just fine.  I'm in a triad that, lets face it, is not ideal by any stretch of the imagination. Heck, some days (like today) I don't even like being part of it. Sex is nearly non-existent because I only see P on weekends due to our work schedules. Weekends are always busy for all of us, so odds of sex happening are 1 in 10 at best. Other than the fact the P would fix my car if I needed him to, I don't get much else out of this relationship. Honestly, before P I had no problem finding mechanics. Something tells me it's  just as easy to get a car fixed today as it was 8 or so years ago. H is useless to have around.  I've mentioned before that she and I have the same job. Today I drove us into work (as usual) we both put in our 8 hours and I drove home. When we got home, I opened my mail,  let the dogs o...

It was an okay weekend. My friend K had a difficult week, long story short she, her boyfriend and her kids were evicted from the home they are staying in. Which is bad enough, but the person that evicted them is her boyfriends mother. That's right, the woman evicted her son and grandchildren.  We knew she wasn't right in the head but this kind of proved it.  The reason she gave for the eviction is she wants to have a dog and can't because K doesn't want one. Yup. They could fight the eviction, but honestly I don't think she should. It's not a healthy environment for her or her kids. Now is the time to move on from everything here (including her BF) and onto the new life she's been planning for so long. It will suck that this means she'll be moving around 4 hours away by car but I know that it will be better for them in the long run.  Anyway, after some amusing (but not mind blowing) morning sex P & I spend the day with K and her youngest son runnin...

It hit me today that I listen to a lot of podcasts. Like,a lot of podcasts. All day really. I love pods. I learn lots, I'm entertained, sometimes I'm freaked out. I thought I'd share my top 10 and why I love them.  1. The Birth Hour Podcast -  So I think I've mentioned a few times before that I am going to start Doula classes next month (and if I haven't done that here, surprise!) This pod is all about letting women tell their birth and postpartum stories, the good, the fantastic, the terrible. I love everything about this pod and consider it part of my doula training. 2. Star Talk with Neil Degrasse Tyson - Do I really need to say more than that? this pod is fun and educational and Dr. Tyson interviews a surprising array of people. I learn something every time I listen.  3. Welcome to Nightvale - This was the first pod I ever listed to. I have no idea how to describe this one. Just listen if you like weird and slightly creepy storytelling.  4. Dearest Doula...

I've exercised 3 days in a row!! I know that for most this is nothing but for me it's awesome!! Especially since I basically took a year off from any form of actual exercise. I'm sore but in a good way, I'm tired but in a way that makes sleep delicious and not just something I "should" do.  Ri came to visit tonight, 24 hours after antibiotics and he's looking and feeling like a million times better. He's still got a cough, which is expected, but at least he feels better. I know the feeling well, I used to have bronchitis every winter. Asthma + cold season = very sick Catie. I love that he's feeling better, joking around and eating again :-)  Now if only P would start getting better. Goodness knows I love the man but his cough is keeping us all up at night. Nyquil didn't touch it last night.  Time to start nagging him to see a doctor. Chances are his cold is now bronchitis too. :-(    Joy.

As expected after not exercising for almost a year I was sore today. Not sore enough for me to needs to take any ibuprofen or slow me down. I even did a mile on the treadmill tonight and worked up a little bit of a sweat. And as an added bonus, I slept great last night!!  I'm looking forward to going back to water aerobics tomorrow.  Ri went to the doctor today, my poor (grown up) kiddo has bronchitis :-(   I'm really glad that he went, I know he hates doctors but I love that after a couple days on antibiotics he'll be back to his old self! I really hate it when he's sick. I know, I know all moms hate when their kids are sick. I also know that he's nearly 21 and not a baby. I just don't care, he'll always be my one and only baby!  I just talked to P, he still sounds like a Nyquil commercial. I sorta wish he would go get checked out too. We jokingly call P Wolverine because he heals from being sick/hurt faster than anyone I know. He's been sick for ab...

So the always much too short weekend had come and gone and I have to say that it was okay. Sadly Ri & P were both sick all weekend. I'm feeling sort of doomed. You know that doomed feeling you get when you're healthy but surrounded by sick people? Like you're just waiting for those first symptoms to hit. Or maybe i'm a hypochondriac? Anyway... Poor Ri got hit with a 24 hour stomach thing that threw him for a loop. The kid has always had an iron stomach (which he did NOT get from me) so when he called Friday to say he was leaving work early I was surprised. Apparently his boss found him throwing up into the trash in the breakroom and thought it would be best if he went home (ya think?)  I asked if he wanted me to go hang out with him for the night and he said no, he just wanted to sleep. No luck, apparently he was up all night vomiting 😟 my poor (grown up) baby! Saturday afternoon he asked me to bring him some ginger ale and crackers. When I got there the poor kid...

Let's start with me thanking everyone that's read my crazy, boring little blog today! Thank you!  Today I received 180 pageviews, that's the most I've ever received in one day since I started blogging. Thank you for reading! I hope my dull little life is interesting to others. It feels like a slog to me most days. Not today though, never on a Friday.  It's it funny how days have personalities? For me Mondays tend to be gloomy and frustrating, Tuesdays are busy both at work and at home and I'm frazzled by the end, Wednesdays are generally good, Thursdays go by in a forgettable blur and then lovely Friday comes along. It's almost impossible for me to have a bad day on Friday even if I know the weekend is going to be full and busy. Knowing I can sleep a bit later and that I don't have to go to work makes my blood pressure go down. Does anyone else's week have a rhythm like that or is it just me? So, what's gone on since I last blogged?  After a ...

It hit me recently that I blog like I would talk to my therapist. Some days I wish I still had one. She got tired of me and booted me out of therapy. Ok, not really,after 10 or so sessions she gently told me that I was ok. I had established boundaries and worked out some coping skills and didn't need a therapist anymore. I'm welcome back anytime.  I liked therapy, when I started I really thought I was losing my mind (long story, very long) having a 3rd party review all the evidence (mostly texts) and listen to me talk for an hour or so at a time then tell me I was NOT crazy was really helpful. I credit her with keeping P & I together. This blog is helping too. When I'm frustrated with life in general I come here and type away. So thank you all for reading. And for the couple comments I've gotten over the past month or so I really appreciate it. 😄 That said, I'm thinking of going back to my therapist for a few sessions. I need to figure out why I'm somehow...

Mine are full of crap that needs to get done and not really fun anymore. Part of growing up I guess. At least I get to sleep a little later than I normally do? Not tons later because my bladder doesn't allow me to do that but it is nice to get up and use the bathroom knowing that I could go back to bed after if I want. I did go back to bed to doze for a little while Saturday. I eventually decided that I was awake for the day but instead of getting up I laid in bed and read while P slept and H took B to volunteer. P & I actually got up around 10:15 and decided to go out for breakfast with T. This was probably the first mistake of the day. I've blogged before about how unplugging T is like taking heroine away from an addict. She brought her iphone but it's battery was dead because she didn't charge it Friday night. The poor phone was super dead, like not even turning on. An unplugged T is a pile of bitchy nonsense. Attitude galore with a side of poor me the universe h...

Work was insane, I mean really insane. Everything I touched was just wrong. I wasn't even grouchy and easily annoyed today things were truly just all wrong. On the bright side I did learn a new thing or two, yay professional development?  Know what else is all wrong? Snow in March. Know what we're expecting tonight and tomorrow? Snow. Between 3-6 inches of it. Shoot me. I seriously can't stand it. Winter has to go away because I'm tired of being cold. At least I can work from home tomorrow? I guess that's a good thing. Or not considering how crazy today was.  Tonight has been fairly chaotic, dinner and Ri came over to visit. I also made some chocolate peanut butter cheesecake cupcakes, I hope they are good. H liked the one she had. which I guess is good too.  Turns out P does not have to work Saturday, I guess it's good that I didn't actually make plans for the day. Although, now I sorta want to... I need a nap but I also need to put away my laundry....

Everything is annoying the fuck out of me today.  Examples:  I always drive to work, yesterday H said she was going to drive in today. This morning she couldn't find her keys. I was completely annoyed that I had to drive to work (something I literally do every weekday without a second thought.)  I didn't care about work at all. But poorly written requests received fairly scathing emailed replies from me asking the requester to explain themselves. Usually I wing it, I'm actually pretty good a figuring out what they need done. Not.Today.  I  didn't care if anyone liked or ate the dinner I chose to make. But if they hadn't eaten it I would have wanted to kill them  (luckily, they all ate and enjoyed it.)  I didn't care that T really, really, really wanted chocolate donuts for dessert.  This one annoyed me in several ways:   The kid has a one track mind and can't let ANYTHING that gets on that track go ever.  Instead of droppin...

Why is there an unwritten rule that all Monday's at work have to be annoying if not all out terrible? I feel like I start the day off with the best intentions a sleepy non-morning person like me can start day with and it goes pretty well through the commute, coffee stop and parking spot finding. then from the second I'm at my desk everything falls apart. 3 "Urgent" (urgent is code for someone, usually the customer but sometimes the company or me fucked up) requests. Really? so I spend my morning chasing those down and getting them settled, not fun. One haunted me all day and the other two took until lunch. Keep in mind that I'm working on these cases while trying to process the "normal" work day work and field emailed questions from both customers and internal colleagues and attend webinar style trainings for upcoming product changes. Do I have a super hard job?  Lets call it challenging, with a side of WTF. Lately I have zero patience with it and most o...

Today is Friday, which is pretty much always a good thing. After work I picked up my BFF crazy K and her youngest son. The original plan was just to pick up them up from her son's speech therapy and grab her prescriptions and bring them home. But you know how things go. Neither of us had any plans for the night and we were out anyway so why not head to Target and grab dinner after? She had actual shopping that she needed to do, I just enjoy being in Target. Don't judge. I only bought 3 things and spent $30 bucks, which isn't bad for one of my recreational trips to Target. Admittedly I didn't "need" 2 of the items but pens make me happy (especially super fine tipped pens that are on sale) and who DOESN'T buy a $40 leather Moleskine phone case when it's more than 1/2 off?? Did I need either of of these items? No. But neither will go to waste, in fact my phone is enjoying it's new case as I type. So as much as I'm enjoying my new laptop, it'...

What should I name this little fella? I like it far more than I thought I would, sure it's entirely web based but know what? That's fine by me because what I'll be using it for the most is the web. The screen is bigger than I was expecting considering it's overall small size. I haven't used the touch screen feature much yet but I'm sure it will be great for watching netflix or hulu or something. The specs say I should get at least 10 hours of work time from the battery and I forget how much standby time exactly but it's a ton. I like that its fairly sturdy looking too. Like I could drop it on the ground and it would still be ok. Not that I plan on testing that because like I said, I like this fella. Maybe that's what it's name is: Fella. So now we all know who I'm referring to when I say Fella. Okay, okay, I'll stop reviewing my laptop now. In other news, P is sad because he did the math and we just can't afford the super duper fancy ca...