Yes, I am an Oddball.

I feel like I didn't get any sleep Sunday night, it was hot in the middle of the bed and my whole body ached. I just couldn't get comfortable. I woke up hourly and was up for the day around 5:30, I didn't get out of bed but I was awake, listening to P sleep and wishing I could too. I was up for the day at 7 and I was already tired and cranky. Luckily I had packed my lunch and work bags Sunday night so all I needed to do was make a cup of coffee and start my car (even though I was boiling hot it was freezing outside last night) so it could warm up a little. Oh and get dressed, I promise I did not go to work in just a Sam Adams t-shirt. Work was a slog, I just wanted the day to end. Don't you hate days like that? I feel like I'm wishing my life away. I generally don't let work get to me, it's a job. Pays the bills, I just go in and get it done and move on. But Monday just made me want to go live as a homeless person. Who needs money? Every request felt like an...

And today's prompt is: What TV show are you obsessed with? Share 10 reasons it’s better than the other shows. Golden Girls!!!  I know, I know it's a really old show but it still stands up. Why? 1. Dorothy's  sarcasm  2. Rose's heart 3. Blanche's self esteem 4. Sofia's spunk 5. Women's Rights 6. St. Olaf Stories 7. AIDS honesty (during the days of paranoia)  8. Honesty about sex and relationships 9. The one liners 10. The love I can watch this show all day and not get bored which is odd for me I tend to get bored with TV shows and move on quickly. They only got away with half of the topics they covered because of the ages of the women involved. Had this show been about 4 women in their 20's there is no way the show would have gotten on the air in the first place. I think part of why i'm not afraid of getting older is because I had these ladies as role models. I'd like to say I'm looking forward to being their age but I...

I'm behind but the prompt for me today is: What's the dumbest thing you and a partner have ever fought about?                                                                   TELEVISION We fight over television way too much. I can safely say that all our "I have to get out of this relationship" fights have been started by TV.  It's probably a good thing because all the fights have shown deeper problems in our relationship. Problems that we are sorta working on.  He's done things to make sure those situations don't happen again and I have decided to ignore as much of the crap that annoys me as I can. So far, so good but we'll see how it goes. I love them and I'd like to think that i'm in this for the long haul but I'm too old to fight about stupid crap.  Like television and bratty daughters.

I just looked at the clock and it's 10:45pm. WTF?Where did Saturday go?  Don't get me wrong, sleeping until 10 and having morning sex was great but the rest of the day got eaten by the errands monster. Luckily P and I were pretty organized and had lists and stuff so we know everything got done including homemade chicken fingers and potato chips for dinner. I'll be turning the leftover chicken fingers into chicken parm tomorrow. Yay 2 for 1 dinner! I need to bake another loaf of regular bread tomorrow too. I'll start it right after breakfast, which I hope will be around 11. I can't believe Thanksgiving is this Thursday, we have the meal planned and the turkey was purchased today (it's thawing now.) I'll bake cookies during the week and throw together a fruit tray Wednesday night. Less than 2 months until Ri and I head off to our cruise, I feel like I should be more excited about that. Hopefully as the day comes closer I will be. Oh well, I guess ...

Its late and its been a busy day. I think I mentioned before that my best friend lost her mom a few weeks ago. Her memorial service was today, not fun. No one loves funerals but this one was more intense than most due to some family disagreements. It was painfully clear that my friends cousins do not consider her or her 3 kids to be "real" family. I can't tell you how often she was referred to as "Aunty's ADOPTED daughter." Huge emphasis on the adopted. None of them sat with her at the reception after the church service or even checked in with her to make sure she was okay.  I sat with her and made sure she had something to eat and someone to talk to. It was insane how divided they were.

YAY two days in a row!!! Today's Prompt: What are the best/worst dishes at Thanksgiving Dinner? This is a good one, I adore food. All aspects of food: meal planning, shopping, prepping, cooking, serving and eating it I love it all. So best for me would have to be the mashed potatoes. With the turkey as a very close second. What can I say, I'm a meat and potatoes kind of girl - but also veggies because salad is delicious and so is broccoli and cauliflower and sprouts and....moving on. I'm not sure why but a mountain of creamy, gravy covered mashed potatoes just makes my heart happy. I think it's the ultimate comfort food. I love how versatile potatoes are in general but I especially love how many ways there are to make mashed especially. They are perfect when simply whipped with a little bit of milk, salt, pepper and maybe a pat of butter. But add a bit of heavy cream, a touch more butter, a heaping spoonful of sour cream and its almost an entirely different foo...

I am way, way behind on NaBloPoMo. Life and the election got in the way of me sitting down to write every day. I'm going to try to get back on track though so here we go: Today's Prompt: What was it like to be you in 2016? Wow, the NaBloPoMo folks really want you to be introspective, don't they? I could go sarcastic and say it was me-like and leave it but I think they were hoping for a little more.  I guess I would sum 2016 me up as frustrated. When I look back over the past year I find that is the emotion I feel most frequently. Frustrated with work, frustrated with our relationship and sexually. I've been frustrated with the kids all three of them (and only 1 of them is mine!), frustrated with myself. I've had my car for over a year now and still love it. So that's something no car frustration.   I know I shouldn't complain, so many people in the world have real problems that they can't control. Almost everything that upsets me is somet...

I didn't mean to but the election happened and I had to get offline and away from social media. Also away from the news. The next four years under a Trump presidency terrifies me. The knowledge that our electoral system has failed for the second time in my lifetime to give the presidency to the candidate that won the over all popular vote pisses me off. I understand why the electoral college was needed when the country was first founded but in this day and age there is no reason that popular vote can't be used. I don't know what I'm more upset about, the fact that we STILL won't have a women president or the fact that a spray painted orangoutang is who beat her (but not really because more people voted against him.) It makes me sick and sad and frustrated. But also resigned to being essentially screwed for the next 4 years. Tomorrow back to our regularly scheduled NoBloPoMo.

Today's Prompt:  If you could redo one moment in your life, what would it be and why? How would it change who you are now?   Rough one because there are quite a few moments that I would change in my life. It's awful to say but I would probably not having gotten back together with my sons father after our initial breakup. Who knows what could have happened or what I could have done during those years. Maybe I would have met someone else and settled down, bought a house and a car and a dog and had another couple kids with that person. Or maybe I would have packed up my baby and made the big move to Hawaii alone. Maybe I would have gone back to school. Who knows what would have happened really but there are days that a mourn the time wasted and chances lost. I sorta hate myself for being as stupid as I was. I had convinced myself that we were perfect together, that we loved each other more than anything and we would live happily ever after. In reality I knew bett...

Today's Prompt is: What Was Your Worst Thanksgiving Food Fail Boy have there been a few. I'm going to go with the year that the Turkey wasn't all the way cooked yet though. Luckily it was one of the years that I only cooked for my mom and dad so they didn't mind that dinner actually took place at actual dinner time instead of the traditional 2pm and the sides were all cold. Or if they did mind, they didn't say anything. Thanks Mom and Dad! In the years since I've mastered Turkey cooking and timing so that all the food is ready at the same time. I've also gone from just serving Mom and Dad to whole dinner parties of extended family and now P&H's extended families. I didn't believe my grandmother when she said that one day Thanksgiving becomes old hat but it's true. We're only a couple weeks away from it at this point and the menu is set and I'm not at all stressed about Turkey Day. Season the bird and toss her in the oven wait a fe...

Whoo hooo 3 days in a row! Prompt:   What fall shows should totally be cancelled already?   Oh dear...this is going to be a short post. I haven't watched any new fall shows. I've watched new episodes of Bob's Burgers, The Simpsons, Last Week Tonight and Transparent. But no new shows really. Oh wait, hold on there was one after on after The Simpsons a couple weeks ago called Son of Zorn, maybe? I only watched the first 10 minutes and it sucked. So that's my vote Son of Zorn is the show that should die. I'm sure there are quite a few others too but that's the only one I actually saw and know about.  I've been thinking of watching How I Met Your Mother on Netflix. I know it was a huge hit but I was never really interested in it while it was on the air. For some reason it's come up in conversation a few times this week so I thought I would watch the first couple episodes to see what the hype is about. I've also been thinking about giving Amer...

Day 2!! Prompt:  If you could be completely honest with no regrets, what would you say and to whom? Ooooh boy, this is a good one. I have more than a few things I'd love to say to people but don't because there would probably be fights and regrets seconds after I said them. Honestly none of them are very nice and I'm going to come off as a complete bitch in this post. Please keep in mind that these are only thoughts that I keep in my head. I've never (and probably never will) actually say any of them out loud because I'm not a bitch. Ok, fine, I might sort of be a bitch but I am great at self censoring and that has to count for something. To O: Please pick a career path, grocery store stocker isn't something you can do forever. Don't be a Republican. Don't listen to them, stop being open to their point of view. Stop loving all things deadly. Guns suck, even antique ones. I thought I was a better mom.... To the co-worker that sits to my left: Please...

About non-relationship stuff. I missed the first day, so I'm going to jump into the second prompt: When was the last time you did something brave? What happened? Hmmm brave...not a word I would use to describe myself. I'm not a shrinking violet but I don't consider anything I do to be especially brave. I don't run into burning buildings or towards any other kinds of danger. I'm not a thrill seeker and avoid rollercoasters and the like (although I do enjoy waterslides.) I wish I was a braver person, I admire brave people. In a way though, I'm thankful for the fact that I don't need to be brave. I'm a white girl from a suburb in the northeast of the USA, a really nice suburb at that. I've never been placed in a life threatening situation. I've never been attacked. I have never been homeless and there has always been food on my table. In my lifetime my country has lived in relative peace. Boko Harum and Dash are just names of "bad guys...

It almost happened Tuesday and it was once again ( surprise, surprise) over TV. It also involved their oldest daughter, B. Here is the rundown: I've mentioned before that I've been feeling lukewarm towards sex at best, our work hours don't help anything. Sex is less available so I want it less. It is what it is, I guess. So Tuesday.... B was scheduled to take her drivers test during the day so P took the day off. B failed the test so she spent the day home with P (pouting I'm sure) all day. I got home after a long day of working and made some dinner for all of us then grabbed a shower. When I came out of the shower and into the bedroom to dry off. P mentioned that he had told B that she couldn't watch TV in our bedroom (we have the better antenna in our room and she wanted to watch over the air TV) so we could "relax." Great, right? Yes, sex did happen. I was bored, it sucked, but hey whatever, P had fun (before anyone asks, he knew I had significant...